An update :)

Sorry its been so long guys :-) 


So, I'm still madly in love, nothings changed, in fact its got better :-) Miles better, we're planning in getting engaged at some point :-) 


Its just ocured to me how the past month and a half has been pretty awful on many different ways, but Im still smiling, because through all the crap, people have really come through for me and shown me that they do really care and will go lengths to make sure I am okay, as I would do the same for them.


I'm now living with my partner and his family, and I'm seeing a whole new way of life that I never really knew existed. A way of life where I aren't feeling constantly on eggshells, where I aren't constantly seeing people fall to pieces and wanting to be anywhere else but there. 


Things can be crap, things have been crap, but I'm really lucky in that I have a brillaint support system and some brilliant friends.


Think about your friends, what would they do for you? More importantly, what would you do for them?


Keep smiling.


Love, Tutti-Frutti.


xxx

Why do you love him?

I got asked the other day why I love my partner. I thought for a long time and still could not come up with an adequate answer. 

I could talk about how I love the feel of his arms around me and the safety that comes along with it. I could tell you how I love the feel and sound of his heartbeat, or when he comes up from behind me to hug me. I could tell you that I love how his hair is when its just been washed, and I love how he has the ability to make me laugh even when I’m in a really bad mood. I love his smile, and how I can get lost in his eyes. 

There are many things about him that I love, but then that does not explain why I love him. Then I thought about it, and figured that its really very clear.

A love is not true love if you have to think of reasons and justifications why you love someone. Reasons are immaterial. A love is true love, when you know you love someone with all of your heart, but you do not know why, and are happy with not knowing why because loving them is enough. I don’t need a reason to love him, I just do. 

Keep smiling.

Love, Tutti-Frutti.

xxx

Things Amusing Me This Morning :-)

Good morning, sorry it has been such a long long time, I have been revising and spending a lot of time with the boyfriend so I haven't been on here as much as I normally am.


Basically, on facebook there are people who repost other peoples photos, some of them are just plain annoying, some of them make me really laugh. I'm going to post a few of the ones that have made me giggle just recently, because everyone needs a bit of a laugh now and then and its sunny outside. 

Being female, of course this one had me in stitches. My PMT isn't too bad really (you can ask my boyfriend, I go quiet but I don't really get angry or anything) but I know some friends for whom this really does apply.

This one I liked because its true :-) And also, because I am a big Alice In Wonderland lover, of the book and the films :-) and the above image comes from the Tim Burton film which I fell in love with the minute I saw it :)

This really made me laugh, it was a case of the writing being so daft, but I got a mental image of someone have a coconut thrown at their face and their friend just stood there while he holds a broken nose saying, "Are you telling me onions are the only food to make you cry now?"

I am very pedantic when it comes to punctuation, to the point of being obsessive. So naturally, this one made me giggle so much, highlights just how important punctuation can be in some circumstances. :-)


Now then, what are you reading this for when outside the sun is shining? Go out there and enjoy the sun :-)


Keep smiling :-)


Love, Tutti-Frutti.
xxx

Never Before

Never before have I loved someone to such a degree that I want to spend every second with them.
Never before have I loved having someones arms wrapped tight around me so much.
Never before have I stayed up all night just texting the same person because I'd miss them when I put the phone down.
Never before have I been with someone who knows me so well that he knows my moods by a slight movement, or even breath.
Never before have I had the above coupled with having someone who knows exactly the right thing to do when I am upset or angry.
Never before have I been with someone who we cannot bear to let go so we hold hands even when he is driving. 
Never before have I been able to sleep next to someone in a bed and not feel petrified. 
Never before have I been this in love. 
Or this happy. 


Keep Smiling :)


Love, Tutti-Frutti.
xxx

Love is in the air.

A little while back when I was upset, my psychology teacher suggested to me that what I needed to do was to fall in love. At the time, I laughed at him, I was cynical about love and relationships, and I thought I was fine on my own, why on earth would I need love?


Why on earth indeed?


I have just entered a relationship with someone who I will go as far now to say I love, when I'm not with him (which is rare), I'm thinking about him, and when I think about him I get butterflies, im like a little schoolgirl. 


But he makes me laugh, being with him makes me happy, I smile when he texts me, being close to him makes me feel safe and secure and wanted, and in short he is just brilliant.


I am so happy. Falling for the right guy is the best thing that has ever happened to me in the world, and I have to thank my psychology teacher for this :-) 


When he told me, I dont think I was ready to listen, and I dont regret not listening because I think this was something I needed to figure out in my own time, he just gave me that little push. 


Falling in love has made me happy.


Keep Smiling.


Love, Tutti-Frutti.
xxx

Smile simply because you can.
Smile because you have the physical capacity to do so.
Smile because it will make someone else smile in the process.
Smile because the process of smiling changes the brain chemistry (no lie). 
Smile because things could always be worse.
Smile because you know somewhere out there, whether they are near of far, someone loves you.
Smile because life is short. 
Smile because you are breathing.
Smile because you have the ability to read these reasons to smile. 


But whatever the reason for you to smile:


Keep Smiling :-)


Love, Tutti-Frutti
xxx

Happy Mothers Day :-)

A few smiles this morning.


It is mothers day, and I havent seen my mother yet but she is coming to where I am a little later with my siblings.


As I write, my amazing grandma is cooking me breakfast, after shes just made me a cup of coffee and I am using her laptop. 


I'm seeing my babies again later today, which I saw them yesterday but I still can't wait.


I'm still euphoric about beating my brother at singstar yesterday :) (until yesterday he was unbeaten at that game, because the two of us are the only ones in the family who can sing :-D) 


Keep Smiling :)


Love, Tutti-Frutti.
xxx

You Never Can Tell.

My reason for smiling today, is sort of laced with something very sad, but all the same something very very eyeopening.


By chance, I happened to come across a book earlier which out of curiosity I downloaded and began to read, I am still reading it, but already it has made me cry on so many occasions, and I think it deserves sharing.


The book is called, "Notes Left Behind" and it is almost like a journal from parents who's daughter has a brain tumour. The daughter is called Elena and she is 6. Now the fact that she suffers with this brain tumour is bad enough, it's heart wrenching to read about her treatment (though she is incredibly brave through it all), but when she finds out she is going to die, she writes notes to her family and leaves them in various places around the house for them to find when she is gone. 


I know you're thinking how on earth is this a reason to smile? Well I guess I'm trying to tell you, when you put your children to bed tonight, hug them that little bit tighter and for that little bit longer. Read them the bigger story, and do all the funny voices and interact with them while you read it. Make going out to the shop like an adventure for them. Make them laugh and let them enjoy their childhood, because the reality is that you never know when it's going to end. Elena's parents didn't get to see her pass her driving test, or get married, or have children or even pass her GCSEs. Last week a young boy in my school died after being in a coma for nine days following being knocked off his bike by a car. He was 14. You can't ever tell when these things are going to strike, so you have to make the most of the time you have here.


The reality is, we all die at some point. Nobody can live forever. Some, like Elena and the young boy from my school, die far too young, but I wouldn't say they die having not lived. They lived, maybe not as long as they should have done and not as long as is fair, but they lived. And my reason for smiling today is that you never know if you are living your last day, and if you knew it was your last day you'd want to go out with a bang right? You'd want to laugh and smile and remember all the good times?


Please smile. Never leave the house on an argument. If you argue with someone, before you leave the house go back up to them, hug them and make up, because you just never know. I said my reason today was laced with sadness, because it always is horrible when someone dies, but that's not a reason not to live, I don't think the dead would want us to remember them in grief and sadness forever, I think they'd want us to remember their happier times, when they were carefree and smiling and laughing, I know that's what I'd want for my family.


Keep smiling.
Love, Tutti-Frutti.
xxx